went back to the site of my car accident for the first time and was filmed as i had a panic attack.

most people i encountered up there knew who i was and asked me really insensitive questions.

was shown drone footage of the rocks down below and had to walk away from it all.

i’m struggling and i’ve been worried about actually admitting that something has been wrong with me since july. i feel like everyone will be happier if they think that i’m okay. & that what i experienced down there wasn’t something so horrible that i can’t even put it into words. i’m worried that this is something that will affect me for the rest of my life.

i don’t know.